Friends

On my journey that is my life, I have encountered something wonderful.

Friends.

Family is great, but that isn’t the focus of this blog. I have a small group of people who I consider true friends. People who I trust completely when I tell them something.

These people have been there for me to cry to as I explore my wounds. As I heal. As I discover what my wounds are…the painful process of opening them up…one by one…letting the poison out.

These are people I met while trying to rebuild my life. They saw value in me when I felt like I didn’t have any. Those are people you need in your life. That’s what a true friend is.

I used to lay in bed at night, and cry cause other than my sister and parents, I honestly felt like nobody loved me. I’d yell at God, asking him why nobody loved me. What was my problem? I had nobody to turn to. Nobody to tell what was really happening in my life. Nobody to tell me with a firm voice, and a loving voice, what my problem was.

I covered it all up. But I was only fooling my self. My soul was dead. I no longer wanted to live.

But then I found a friend. My friend saw value where I found none.

I found out what love is. Love between friends. I’ve never felt that before. Maybe I did, but I simply forgot. I had friend after friend abandon me because of my living situation. Well, maybe they weren’t friends.

I realized last week, that I no longer cry out to God about being lonely. No, I don’t have many friends.

You know if I count you as a friend.

I want you to know that I love you.

Thank you for realizing that I have a life worth living now, and a future that I am finally looking forward to.

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