I’m sitting here alone for the New Year. But I don’t feel bad. I pledged to myself to begin my life anew this year, and I am on the right track. I want to thank Cort Langeland and Keri Lowe for playing a crucial part in my survival. Literally. I will count you as friends the rest of my life. I want to thank Phil for being a friend and one that I could yell at…even though it wasn’t he that I was upset with. Evan, thanks for keeping your standards high for me. Liz, thanks for being the only one who understood what I was going through. For always being kind and supportive. I will never forget that.
I have made new friends and gotten a hold of some old ones. All of whom I cherish.
As for the people who don’t know what I went through at my old church…the one that hurt me so bad, I have also forgiven that church. I had to do it over and over and over…but I have finally forgiven you forever. Now, I pray for you. I pray that you see what God is trying to show you. It is such a good thing to begin to know what God is all about.
Mom and Dad. I love you so much. I am alive because of you. You have enriched my life beyond measure. Your love and support will last for generations.
I finally have some friends. I am healing. I now am starting to experience what it is like to be happy.
I am at peace.
I understand that God had a good purpose for what I went through.
I am pregnant with dreams and messages. 2012 will be a time of chasing those dreams. 2011 was a time for testing and learning. I did it. Not alone, but I did it.
Here I come world.